Failed. I'm officially a failure now. That's it. I don't feel any type of way. I'm too tired to feel anything . I'm too tired to want to tell people. I'm too tired. I feel like going to sleep and never waking up again .... atleast for a long time ... No, I'm not suicidal ... I'm tired . .. I'm so tired that I'm dead . Not dead enough to not want to live .. dead enough to want to sit in a corner and do nothing .
No, I'm not giving up. I can't. I don't want to. I want to sleep. Sleep over everything. There are so many things....I don't even know if I can do this ... I probably can't ? I'm convinced that I can't. I will still try.... because that is how stupid and obstinate I am.
Nobody wants to understand ... nobody will .. and also ... I'm too tired to want to explain. Maybe I deserve this ... I don't know ... I don't want to know ... how does it make a difference ... I feel dead anyway ... I'll bounce back ... I know that ... Someday i will ... I trust myself ...and contradict myself ... basically I'm a loser that is going to get back up.
I don't know how ... but I will.
May 26 2016 , 10:32 AM IST